all we do is win!

so, ecu beat state, such a great game! it made me sooo nervous! it went into overtime and we missed the extra point but made an interception when they had the ball and it was over! shoo. games are so much fun, though. and it was neat to finally get to play state! we only play them every other year, so the next time we play will be at state my senior year. kind of a long way away, but i wanna go! i dont think i'll be in marching band then, though... state's full band came to the game! unfortunately i didnt really know anyone in it. well, i take that back, i didnt know i knew anyone in it, except for people i've met a couple times through a few of my friends at school. actually, i found out yesterday that molly hedges is in it, and she was in band with me in high school! she plays clarinet! but i didnt see her. we played hey baby with their band and it made me a little sad cause i didnt have anyone to sing it to. i sang to a random guy on tenors...

but i think some people at state may be a little sore after their loss. good game, though. nice try.

time flies?

so can you believe i'm gonna be 20 in less than 3 months? i've been thinking about that a lot lately. how old i am. how i'm 5/16ths of the way through college (at least my undergrad). my little brother will be 18! which makes me feel old, too. it doesnt seem like that long ago when i was 16 and getting my drivers' license... but that was 4 years ago. and soon, 18 will be 2 years ago! i hardly feel 19 right now. like, i have to remind myself. i'm not a freshman anymore. i'll never be a freshman again! senior year doesnt feel like it was that long ago, either, but once i'm done with this year, i'll be closer to being a senior in college than a senior in high school.

i do think i'll go to grad school, though. an extra 2 years to figure out a job. and pay tuition... a job is something i worry about. it's why i'm a double major. from what i hear, it's really difficult for a performance major to find a job. and i knew this, but i still chose it as my major. i'm already nervous about auditions for symphonies and stuff, and i've barely even thought about it.

i can't decide if i want time to go fast or slow. at first i think fast, but then i think about all the things that'll happen, all the decisions i'll have to make, and i think, no, i'd like it to go slow. but i think what i really want is for it to start fast then slow down before i graduate.

by the way, corn mazes are awesome. and wrightsville beach under a new moon is absolutely amazing. there were more stars than i think i've ever seen at once and the water was so sparkly you wouldnt believe. and i saw 2 shooting stars. it was magical. i'm almost scared to go back cause it can't be as perfect as it was on friday night.

fall break!!

fall break is sooo close! but 4 days kinda feels like a long time. i still have to make it through my modern algebra test. and 2 more marching band rehearsals. today marching band was actually pretty good - franklin (our director) was out sick so it was run by the grad staff. everyone was in a better mood so we sounded better and everything. i just hope we get a lot done on wednesday so maybe, possibly, we'll get out early on friday! i'm crossing my fingers. i'm going to the football game at ashley that night and i realllly want to get there as quickly as i can so i wont miss half time. i made it before half time last year, so i think i can do it again.

but yes, 4 more days, and i can't wait. i really need a break. i feel like i'm in a bad mood too often here, things getting me down that shouldnt bother me and whatnaught. things i shouldnt let bother me that i've been dealing with for a long time that are just... hard to deal with now. ugh. a break from it will help. friday night can't come fast enough.